Friday, January 09, 2009 11:12 PM
tong yi ge yi han (full CD version) - pan wei bo wilburwarning! this part is full of rants, a bit scoldings, will try to censor here and there.
so read at your own risk.
and it's my blog, i make my own comments!
i know that im taking this matter too personal, some may think it's all right to go over. none(i think) of the previous has jumped over to the other side, most of us knew the consequences and what we have faced in the past. all they need is an excuse( and you happily go over, giving them the finest opportunity) to open a girls' unit.
giving a reason "only two are allowed" is bullshit. if you really want, you can just tell us and i will jolly well offer my place and position.
still have the cheek to come over. sorry! that's guides' territory.
why do they have to go there, earning respect from people that arent suppose to be theirs. feeling the sense of belonging there i guess. groom them and get betray(my feelings).
dorothy was right that time, the moment they went over for whatever reasons they sae, it's not possible for them to step back. why did i become soft-hearted at that time?!
kids, please think at my level of thinking. it's not easy to restrict myself in here. 2 years+ four years back.
if guiding is all about fun, i would leave long agoit's not enjoyable to go back and face all the conflicts and troubles that you made, and performance that has been declining ever since "dun know when" while juggling my own kind of problems. if you prove yourself worthwhile, i will not go back.
guess ppl like us are not meant to be appreciated. doesnt matter should have gotten use to it.
the seventh year is an uncertain one. jasmine not continuing hers. cheryl yes. ban heng dropped his long ago.
that's all. deleted alot.
im tired, mentally.
